Writing is a way of reclaiming my mind from depression, but there is a darker side to it called resistance. I won’t call it writer’s block because the same thing stands in the way of any purposeful activity or major life commitment, including the process of recovering from depression. It usually begins only after I […]
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The Friends of Depression at Work
(Here’s an edited journal entry from early days of this blog when I was trying to survive depression at work.) I keep looking for a ray of humor in the ongoing torture of trying to work when depressed. This has not been easy. In fact, I’ve been falling into dark memory holes and getting a […]
Meditation and Treatment by Tweet
Some Rights Reserved by dicktay2000 at Flickr When deeply depressed, it’s not the fear of failure I carry but the fear that success is getting too close. When I’m living in the timeless Now, what happens to hope, to a future, to recovery? I think I’ll want them back if I land again in the […]
Depression, Praise & Undoing Success
On my good days, praise is exciting, gratifying to hear. On my bad days, until recently, praise launched the automated program called Undoing Success. It started with a weight of doom sinking into the center of my chest. There followed in quick succession an attack of intense anxiety and a mental emptying of every idea […]
Depressed for Success
Photo Credit: JesterArts – Stockxpert I’ve been a bit overwhelmed reading the many moving responses to my post dealing with depression at work, Support or Defeat?, that have appeared on Beyond Blue and Furious Seasons. The comments describe many tortured work histories, some with good outcomes, others with no end in sight to an anguished […]
