Posted by JohnD
Thu, 20 Dec 2007 21:29:00 GMT
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I went to a wedding once, and the pastor had a simple message for the young couple before him as well as the rest of us packed into a beautiful church. “Marriage is survival,” he began, and the crowd of two hundred answered back in laughing groans of recognition.
That statement is true of any marriage that lasts, and how much harder it is when one of the partners is dealing with major depression. I woke this morning recalling that advice and saddened at the thought of how destructive depression has been to my marriage, as it must be to any sustained intimate relationship. What happens to my wife when I’m lost in an internal struggle? What does she go through? I’ve had all too many chances to find out.
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Posted in Partners to Depression, Connecting | Tags abuse, disappearing, family, gardening, healing, hope, love, marriage, partner, recovery | 2 comments | no trackbacks
Posted by JohnD
Sat, 18 Aug 2007 00:07:00 GMT
I can't remember when this started happening. I'm walking about in everyday life reacting to nothing, feeling nothing, and it's happening now when I'm on the job, running a meeting with 20 people around a table. This is not the self-control I developed as a kid, the bottling up of intense feeling out of a refusal to show it to anyone directly, unfiltered. No, this is empty shell time. Things I felt so intensely about yesterday are like nothing to me now. What was that thing I was so hoping to do, or that I dreaded? I can't even remember. I'm floating in a gray cloud, nothing clear, nothing vivid. I'm not even worried about not knowing where I am or which way is up. It doesn't matter.
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Posted in What Depression Can Do, Surviving at Work | Tags action, anesthetic, consciousness, disappearing, floating, missing, work | 2 comments
